The Prodigal Son Cycle I Keep Repeating Endlessly

Coming back to brokenness and the Word, the insight I find is that I keep repeating this stupid cycle. Can I ever break free of it?

See how when we are broken and humbled, we go to Prayer, which gives us Faith and Joy?

But the danger of that Joy is that we start to take credit for the Joy and the Blessings God has given us.

"If I can make THAT happen, what ELSE can I make happen???"

So we dream bigger dreams of greater selfish glories, greater achievements, greater blessings, and we begin to plan HOW we will make that happen, but we have already started with lust and selfishness, so chances are that our methods will be sinful and have Consequence.

As soon as we experience Consequence again, we are humbled and go back to God.

What a waste of time! Why are we so stupid? We will never be perfect on this earth, so we will continue this, even if we don't create huge obvious Consequences in the world, we will still see how we don't measure up and we will be ashamed internally.

We are constantly reminded of God's Mercy and Forgiveness- we feel delivered by him since we know that without him we are mean and deserve nothing.